Meeting the Parents!

   Meeting the parents that I will be carrying a baby for was absolutely nerve wracking! I stressed for weeks, but days before I wasn't sleeping well and quite nervous! We left Thursday night for our jacuzzi suite. It was beautiful and so relaxing! I am totally guilty of eating in the tub as well as watching Grays Anatomy in there! But that is where the relaxing ended. When I tried to go to sleep I noticed how loud the hotel was, there were cars going by and loud neighbors. It sounded like we were next to a herd of elephants! Then I noticed the beam of light shining all of the way around the door. When I sleep there has to be silence and complete darkness, I have black out curtains and I cover all of the clocks so it was hard for me to go to sleep. Then at 3:30 I woke up wide awake! It hit me that in a few hours I would meet them, the people who were a few pictures and a story to me would be sitting in a room with us trying to decide if I had what they were looking for in someone to have their baby. That was when I started really stressing!

Once we got on the plane, I got a little more nervous! When we landed I really thought I might throw up. We were in the same town as them. These people had flown from the other side of the world to meet ME. The cab ride to Growing Generations was slightly less scary than the first time, or maybe I was too nervous to notice. We got to GG about a half hour early. I was way too nervous to actually go in so we went to a little cafe so George could get a snack, I was not brave enough to eat at this point. I was minutes away from meeting two people who will become very important to me. George finally convinced me to go up to the office about 15 minutes early. We arrived before our IPs (intended parents) and were greeted by the staff then escorted into a room to wait. That is when I really got scared! I actually thought of leaving and going for a quick run to calm down.... but the dress and heels stopped me! Then our IPS arrived. They were kept in the waiting room for a bit which almost killed me!! I went from wanting to puke to on the verge of tears, I couldn't tell you exactly why I was so emotional but I was.
   Then the moment of truth..... the psychologist brought our IPS in the room with us. We were greeted with warm hugs from everyone. It was still a little awkward as we were guided through formal questions but as they were answering questions I just kept thinking, Yes, that is exactly how I feel about this. I started feeling much better. I was really nervous at first because they kept looking at me, yes it is normal to look at someone when they are speaking but I felt like it was the moment of truth. They were sizing me up to decide if they wanted me to carry their baby!! Then the psychologist, who had been leading the meeting said that we had about 5 hours left and that we should spend the entire time together getting to know one another. I was nervous again!! What if we had nothing to talk about? What if they didn't like us outside of the office? We were going to lunch, what if they think I am crazy because I am so picky? But I was pleasantly surprised. We had so much in common! I shared crazy sleep habits and lack of geographical memory with one and a love for shopping and Grays Anatomy with the other just to name a few things! We laughed and talked the whole time, there were no awkward silent moments, they had so many questions for us. They had done their homework on us as well, they had already found out all bout our tiny little community and the surrounding areas. We ended up going to Santa Monica, which was great. The drive was a little scary, I must admit! Partly because of the driver :) (one of our IPS) and partly because of traffic, I am not cut out for traffic like that! Thank God I had the other IP next to me for a distraction! I didn't get to walk on the beach in Santa Monica, but we went out on the pier to take a picture for my daughter. Then before I knew it, it was time to call the cab to take us back to the airport. It went so fast and I could have spent the whole evening with them. As we said goodbye I really felt that we had made a connection and that they were the ones for us. I was in awe of how well we got along. As I thought of all of the things I will be putting myself through, diet and activity restrictions, shots, travel, pregnancy pains, and hopefully a drug free delivery I was struck with the notion that I do not have a second thought about doing any of it for these two amazing people. They are so deserving and have such a desire to love and raise a baby of their own that any discomfort I may have is totally worth it.
   Nothing is set in stone at this point. I emailed the agency on my way to the airport and told them that I was 100% sure this is who I wanted but they could still said no. I won't know for sure until tomorrow but I am confident that they will say yes as well. So if that happens we will do contracts and then in 2-4 months we will do the transfer. I was excited to find out that at least one of the IPs come to California pretty regularly so they may be able to attend appointments and visit more often than I expected. I am really happy about that, this is going to be their pregnancy, just in my body. I want them to experience it all. They also plan on being here for a few weeks before and after delivery which is exciting as well. I will end with some pictures that our IPs took of us and hopefully my next update will be saying that we are officially matched!